Thursday, November 29, 2007
making do
inspired by several conversations this week
and a blog post i just read
i feel the need to talk about sex
or more precisely
the need for sex
sexual frustration drives people to do funny things
and settle for funny people
intelligent over-achieving women end up with
bums
bright hard-working men end up with
bimbos
and they know they are settling
they know they are making do
and everyone tells them self that they're only doing it to pass the time
to entertain themselves
until something better comes along
and if it doesn't come along
then at least they are getting some ass along the way, right?
but why is it that we have given up on finding someone we actually like
how is it that we have reached the point that finding someone that actually rubs us the right way is so unattainable
is it really that hard to find?
do we have our eyes closed?
have we all watched one too many Disney movies and constructed unrealistic expectations?
or are we such 'individuals' that we are, in fact, just too selfish and self-centred to get along with someone full-time?
are we all so alienated from one another that the idea of a full time partner is, although appealing in theory, terrifying in reality?
I'll be honest:
I'm scared
Once (and IF) I find that person
WHAT the hell do I do with him?
Where do I put him?
Am I going to have to compromise? Because... I don't want to compromise anymore. Not right now, anyway.
My life is super hectic. I have ambitions, and I have goals.
Would he distract me?
Would that be so bad?
Because, if we convince ourselves of what we want anyway.. then
But no. I like my life
Where it is,
and where it is going.
And if that person doesn't perfectly fir into place.
Just, drop it into the puzzle
then I
don't
know
what
to
do
with
that
and a blog post i just read
i feel the need to talk about sex
or more precisely
the need for sex
sexual frustration drives people to do funny things
and settle for funny people
intelligent over-achieving women end up with
bums
bright hard-working men end up with
bimbos
and they know they are settling
they know they are making do
and everyone tells them self that they're only doing it to pass the time
to entertain themselves
until something better comes along
and if it doesn't come along
then at least they are getting some ass along the way, right?
but why is it that we have given up on finding someone we actually like
how is it that we have reached the point that finding someone that actually rubs us the right way is so unattainable
is it really that hard to find?
do we have our eyes closed?
have we all watched one too many Disney movies and constructed unrealistic expectations?
or are we such 'individuals' that we are, in fact, just too selfish and self-centred to get along with someone full-time?
are we all so alienated from one another that the idea of a full time partner is, although appealing in theory, terrifying in reality?
I'll be honest:
I'm scared
Once (and IF) I find that person
WHAT the hell do I do with him?
Where do I put him?
Am I going to have to compromise? Because... I don't want to compromise anymore. Not right now, anyway.
My life is super hectic. I have ambitions, and I have goals.
Would he distract me?
Would that be so bad?
Because, if we convince ourselves of what we want anyway.. then
But no. I like my life
Where it is,
and where it is going.
And if that person doesn't perfectly fir into place.
Just, drop it into the puzzle
then I
don't
know
what
to
do
with
that
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
the push of the cold
the odd homesick day
the pull of the bohemian
cosmopolitanism
of this urban island
in the middle of the st lawrence
my joy
my pain
my montreal
the odd homesick day
the pull of the bohemian
cosmopolitanism
of this urban island
in the middle of the st lawrence
my joy
my pain
my montreal
Sunday, November 25, 2007
I'm alive
and well.
The universalizing- or globalizing - of the nation-state has kept me occupied. I've been distracted within a hypermediated and interactive paradigm, and for that, i apologise.
Of course, now that I'm back to paper writing.. I'm back to blogging- the two seem to go hand in hand.
I need to find a better way to disable my wireless- constantly being connected has led facebook and gmail to take over my life.
Montreal is getting colder again, and I'm remembering what it feels like to glide on icy pavements- i was looking forward to some of the crunchy stuff, but alas, no such luck.
***
How has the fall been treating people? My fall has been all over the place.
September was fun, but fast paced. October was slow and miserable, and I'm not entirely sure November even happened.
The universalizing- or globalizing - of the nation-state has kept me occupied. I've been distracted within a hypermediated and interactive paradigm, and for that, i apologise.
Of course, now that I'm back to paper writing.. I'm back to blogging- the two seem to go hand in hand.
I need to find a better way to disable my wireless- constantly being connected has led facebook and gmail to take over my life.
Montreal is getting colder again, and I'm remembering what it feels like to glide on icy pavements- i was looking forward to some of the crunchy stuff, but alas, no such luck.
***
How has the fall been treating people? My fall has been all over the place.
September was fun, but fast paced. October was slow and miserable, and I'm not entirely sure November even happened.
